Hands

My body is such that if I reach the normal temperature of 98.6 I have a fever. Not so my hands.

In cooking school I failed in one thing, desserts that require hand work, like making puff pastry, because my hands melted the butter. I let others do that, and paid them back by getting a mousse or ice cream or aspic or something out of a bowl they had and onto a plate.

Tonight our dog was lying on my husband’s empty space having a bad dream and I placed a hand on her non-hips for a few seconds and she went out of REM sleep and back to sleep. Yes, dogs do dream.

My husband often has dreams and if I place a hand on his back (he fell off a tree swing as a kid) he calms down and goes into a deep sleep.

There are more important things than cooking school. Pastry was never my thing anyway. I would have to work in a walk-in frig with a marble board. Mom and my younger sisters excelled at mincemeat tarts, cookies, brownies, many more desserts while I did straight cooking.

It is more important to me to tend to my family as if I can help them sleep and be comfortable, it is a blessing for all. Oh, dog Zoe is up and clicking her paws down the hall. She can’t let me be gone for five minutes! Think about that when you wish to adopt a herding dog. Yes, adopt, from a shelter. All of my four animals over 30 years have been adopted.

Zoe’s been with us for 12.5 years. She loves everyone, takes care of me and makes sure I never exit without her knowledge. Then she takes a position by the front door so I will return. I always have returned from errands promptly and always will, until it is impossible to do so.

Family is so important to me. So is sleep. It’s nearly 4:30 in the morning and she, Zoe The Hipless Wonder dog, is more than ready to be lifted back up on the bed. Who is training whom? Good morning, Dee

OTIS: Elevate Us

It turns out that I am the fourth of five unfortunate souls to be trapped in elevator #4 in the past week, and probably there for the longest time because Otis kept me busy pressing buttons and doors for 1/2 hour.

By then it was 6:30 and they finally got a truck to come out which took another 1/2 hour.

I was downstairs bringing in the dog late afternoon and a man I see reading the paper every morning shut the elevator door in my face, after I thanked him. Only one elevator is working for 20 floors of residents. It is rush hour now. Hopefully the stuck individual was released and is home safe and sound.

We pay a lot to live here. If management doesn’t have the money to pay for regular maintenance and repairs, they don’t belong in business and we will leave. If the bank who owns 40 stories of real estate here doesn’t want to allow management to spend money on this key issue, they do not deserve paying tenants. We’ve been here for years and in all my years on earth I’ve never been stuck in an elevator since last week.

School is starting up soon and when there is a moving truck outside or a furniture rental truck for rich kids whose parents are paying the bill, they shut down the only elevator that works these days. Yes, we are not allowed to use it. We live upstairs, way upstairs. I’ve had rheumatoid arthritis for 30 years, misdiagnosed for 20. Our dog has no hips.

Walking all those flights at least six times per day, while paying what we do for no service whatsoever, does not make sense. It’s time to move west, young man. We’re paying full income tax in two states, one in which my husband works and lives in a hotel, and one where he doesn’t make a nickel but it is our primary address.

Our dog Zoe has bottled water, a bowl, a 4″ orthopedic bed and a cargo net in the back of my SUV. All I need is my suitcase, guitar and laptop, dog food and it’s: have dog/doggie bags, will travel. I know my way, have done it before. Sick as a dog last time on that route, unable to speak at all so my husband followed in his car and when I got off the highway he followed, we got gas, water and used the facilities and, of course, took Zoe out first.

Fix the elevator, people! I’ll not be stuck again. Dee

To Sir, With Love

A couple of weekends ago I saw this poignant Sidney Poitier film about an engineer who could not get a job in his field so ended up a school teacher in a bereft docklands school north of London.

These days anyone would give the world to be in a loft or flat in that neighborhood. But I digress.

I hate to tell you the end of the film but you’ve had over 44 years to see it so I don’t feel bad. He tears up his engineering job offer and sticks with the poor kids. He has taught them skills, including manners, cooking and most important, respect for themselves, each other and society at large, in an unorthodox manner for the day.

There are “sirs” I love, from my father and brother to husband and his father and brother. In between there have been teachers/professors who made a difference. Often they taught between the lines, which spoke to me (my little brother drove me crazy but taught me even though I was brought up in a strict Teutonic home ‘tho he and my little sister had it much easier – I could blur some lines and maybe be able to break a few boundaries in life, which I have done).  Brothers are enervating but inspirational at times, just not when they’re playing drums on our suitcases in the back of the station wagon en route to our summer vacation, a long drive.

I didn’t back seat belt laws for adults, just for kids. Imagine how annoying he would have been between me and my sister, belted in, in the back seat. Mom, he’s poking my arm! She didn’t see it and loved him more than us so told us to forget it. Now he’s more than family, he’s also a best friend.

The ladies I respect and love will be included in a later post. I awakened early this morning. Dog was still on the bed, husband a couple thousand miles away at work. Zoe usually gets off the bed around 4:00 a.m. to go underneath the bed below my pillow, for beauty sleep. That’s why she, at about 90 in “people years” looks better than I do in the morning.

I had written an entire blog in my head during this morning in a few seconds of REM sleep. It was recalled for a fraction of a second then lost forever. I ran to the office to write it down and it was gone. Poof!

A difference was made this weekend. I spent 20 years working with disowned shelter dogs and cats, and spaying/neutering feral cats. We have a 12 year-old “pup” who is very sweet to everyone. She’s an Australian Shepherd mix, a herder, but our neighbor’s five year-old grand-daughter was frightened of all dogs because she had been bitten by one.

We (Zoe and I) wrote her a letter speaking of fear and how I got rid of some of my fears. The next day the little girl begged to call on our dog Zoe with Grandma and played with Zoe in our home and was still a bit fearful of placing out her hand flat with a treat on it, as one would give an apple or carrot to a horse. She probably gave Zoe 100 treats but after Zoe did the trick she threw the treat on the floor for Zoe to retrieve. Permit me to say that Zoe slept soundly that evening. “I’m tired, Mom, put me up on the bed.” Yes, in our home I am Otis the elevator for our Hip-less Wonderdog.

Today I sent F’s grandpa an email telling him of my petting an ornery mountain lion. Once. Do not try this at home. I was properly supervised. His grand-daughter wants a dog but should not have one until she faces all her fears. Miss F made great progress in 24 hours. We were thanked and look forward to seeing these kids again.

It’s funny that we’re living amongst very interesting people and two of our neighbors are grandparents who have grand-kids who love our dog and call on her to play or walk or chase a ball. I don’t know what I’d do without Zoe.

Our place is clean within an inch of its life, until Zoe sheds all over, yes today, and my arthritis is making me strive to walk twelve blocks a day. We’ve a new maid and she knows the name of our Zoe’s imaginary evil twin who we’ve never met or fed, taken out or to the vet. Her name is Chloe, who leaves fur under the bed.

Yesterday Ms. B was lying next to our bed with a vacuum cleaner and saying some not nice things about evil imaginary twin dog Chloe. I made up for it. Last week, on my husband’s flight home, a baby was crying and driving all the passengers nuts. My husband reached into his shirt and grabbed a balloon and made a balloon animal in front of the screaming kiddo and tendered it. The baby was quiet. The navigator came back and gave my husband a set of “wings” that he gave to me and I gave to Ms. B for her five year-old son. Apparently he likes pins on his school backpack. As JFK said for an astronaut, John Glenn (later Senator) this medal came from the ground up. As did he, and circled the earth then went back up years later on the Shuttle.

One thing perplexed me, that the original astronauts forced an explosive hatch, a window and called it a spacecraft but decades later they called it a shuttle. As in an elderly Dee saying now it’s time to go to dinner, dear, it’s 4:oo p.m. and there will already be a line at the buffet. Let’s take the shuttle. It’s like getting the bus. Now the entire program has been de-commissioned, unless NSA has taken it over and is using it to spy on us.

What goes around, comes around. I’ve never seen the people who’ve deeply hurt me go through this, on their end however know what awaits evil people. I love seeing happiness and joy and giving to life, love and people. I believe in people, until they give me a reason not to do so.

It’s been a rough week. I made this post up as my brother just said, seat of the pants. I’m Red Adair. I fight fires, situations that come up that I must deal with before anything else. I was always afraid to write because I kept everything inside. Now I can write 500 words in ten minutes. Wouldn’t the gals on my dorm wing lined up at my door to borrow my 1957 Smith-Corona electric portable typewriter love that! I still have it and take it wherever we move. It’s the heaviest “laptop”  I’ve ever used.

Wouldn’t the gals love my secret?  I may have been able to teach them to write their own paper in ten minutes. Do the research, think it though then write……..Dee

 

Fear

What did I fear most as a kid? I was afraid to be smart. Of course I was set aside as smart with another kid and we got to read real books, in the back of the classroom, years earlier than other students older than me.

I do not know what happened to my reading companion after that but we enjoyed studying different books together at the back of the classroom. We were made May Queen and May King for Mayfest in 2nd grade. That was a degree of notoriety I never intended. Reading and understanding and crying at home reading Death Be Not Proud was not something my fellow students wanted to know or learn. They were learning phonics, and S and I had already known how to read for years. We learned to read early and I taught my sister when she was four. Our parents fought ITA, phonics, for smart kids who were already reading 2+ years ahead.

Sitting in the back of the classroom, the new teacher, first day, would butcher my name.  I’d raise my hand and give them my nickname as they were not smart enough to master my given name. They didn’t care, nor did my parents for giving me the name. I did. I was a little kid with a big name. It was scary to raise my hand from the back of the room and say “call me Dee.” I love it now but still everyone calls me Dee.

They always put me in the front of the class, front of the grades until later when… that comes later.

I was always so shy. I did not raise my hand so was called on and always knew the answer. Now the Olympics are on the television and I got to see bits of W0mens’ gymnastic vaults and uneven bars. This was a passion I’ve had since before you were born. Olga Korbut, Nadia the perfect 10.

When my family moved to a new city it was summer and I was 15. I tried out for the gymnastics team before the season/school and made it. Then I was immediately made captain. I had been at an elite public school (ever seen the movie about the trouncing of my alma mater in football by TC Williams? Ask Denzel Washington about it as we were G.C .Marshall.)

I was a much better captain than gymnast. That’s why I like to think young girls like me made a new sport better by caring about it and trying to do better tricks than Olga Korbut could do in the seventies, and even the first ten Nadia who brought down everything in her brilliance.

Now I don’t even understand the scoring mechanisms and new rules but have loved seeing womens’ vault and uneven bars competitions. They are so beautiful, I could cry.

As a captain there are duties, leadership responsibilities, education. Foremost are inspiration, aspiration (life goals) and I believe there is kindness to others. These are high school kids. I’m captain of a ship my younger sister is on who wants me to fail every moment and this is high school.

It was difficult. I led some elite gymnasts and taught others. I taught one team-mate humility after she wanted to leave the State Finals after her own performance. I said her team was there for her, the best gymnast in our school, all along and we deserved her support until the end of the meet.

In the locker room I said unless she did this for her team, as the captain, she’s off the team as of now and I’ll tell our coach and she’ll tell the judges her captain says she’s off the team immediately and she will not win anything.

Guess who was in the stands cheering her team-mates? She won her award. I finally spoke out. These mates have been cheering you on all season. You have to cheer us on as well. She did it.

I know she did not do it for her team as she didn’t have a team except herself. She wanted the award but her team-mates needed to know she was there for them. I made sure that happened for them, not for her.  No-one knew except me and Coach, as I had to ask if I could strip her of her medal, and I hope this helps our old team and coach, and haunts her even now.

After 11 I need to go to bed because I’ll know what I missed and and have been up for nearly 17 hours because of family duties, tomorrow, friends, cheers from Dee

 

 

 

 

 

Prep

Stuck in an elevator alone for an hour awaiting rescue, I thought about some things.

I am a good legislative analyst, writer and cook, not necessarily in that order. I am not usually, nor do I wish to be, the person on stage. I am the one who makes the person on stage who he/she is.

In the real world, I write the speech, the legislation (I was a legend back in the day), stay after hours. Now I cook for my husband and always do mis en place, every dish in our home. No matter, I get to prep, cook and clean up, something none of my roommates would allow me to do in college. In college I never cleared plates or cleaned up because I did prep and dinner.

In high school and college I had trouble writing because I was told I was useless and would never amount to anything. Several mentors told me otherwise. I wrote crap in college, then excelled at legalese, and then consulting documents including formative papers, studies et al.

It is such a joy to finally write on my own, for fun. I have a voice. It is something many mentors gave me over the years. They gave me how to speak and spell and how to make a coherent sentence. Every time I write a post I look at it and ask how they would see it.

Gone are the days of typewriters, lined paper, carbon paper and not knowing my muse. It’s life!

Now I write to write, and events change my life every day. Oh, I missed gymnastics yesterday at the Olympics but saw the first page of the paper. If I did (and I did) want to be a ballerina or a gymnast I’m too old to be either. I do have an education.

Now I “prep” sometimes for my husband, a genius physicist and engineer. It’s interesting that I used to revise his resume and papers and now I prepare dinner. I still write and he does ask me to review things. I still do taxes. As to prep, I do take care of our dog as well.

Years ago I had two great professors who tried to make me into what I could be. It took me a bit longer to figure it out. They taught me information that would change my life and put the life puzzle together. Thank you Fathers C and J. Be with God, my Fathers, and I will join you and perhaps play bad guitar on a good guitar.

I’m not going to “prep” for that. Ribeye is on sale. Baked potato, roasted carrots? He’s snoring so doesn’t have a say in this. I am a leader and deal with it in my own way, the power behind the throne. In any city I’ve lived in I can get you anywhere without traffic. Dee

 

Control

It’s early, I’m up for a couple of hours while awaiting sunrise, husband finally home and snoring, dog underneath my side of the bed for dark so she can get her beauty sleep before the sun comes into the windows. Routine, I have become a herder! Perhaps I was always a herder.

When we married I didn’t sense any control issues, few now. It is external forces at work. I have the bank accounts. I pay the bills. Utilities, even the bank says they will not do what I ask without my husband’s permission. Excuse me???

Yesterday I was stuck in a hot elevator alone for an hour before someone opened the doors and offered to close them to bring me up four feet. Believe me, having no control over your life stuck in a hot box brings you to say “no one is going to shut this door on me again.”

Stuck in an elevator. Four feet up and ten feet from home I could see my home and imagine our dog Zoe worrying about me (she sat at my feet for 1/2 hour afterwards) and my husband on a plane home from work.

My control issues are not with my husband or our families, they are with outside parties who do not acknowledge my existence in order for me to conduct normal business. I am currently shopping for banks and health insurance companies who do their jobs and deal with my infrequent questions as if I am an adult and do not need parental or spousal approval.

We’re going on a trip this fall to celebrate my father’s 85th birthday. I am the eldest child which might suggest my age, not a kid. My father does not treat me as a child, nor should my bank, electric company, cable company, water & sewer. They all had me get my husband on the phone to give me permission to contact them when they were my accounts! Now they’re reverting to bad past practices.

I am getting older and it takes ten times longer to return something to Amazon than it should. That is time that could be spent in more industrious efforts and time that is taken from my life. At least my husband got me decent headphones so I can work around the house while being on hold to awful music.

Muzak should be outlawed. In terms of control, I would like every customer service agent and corporate executive to call in to their own business and listen for 20-45 minutes to wait for a human to answer the phone. That is their assignment for the day.

Enjoy your weekend. My loves will sleep until they awake and I envy them that opportunity, I was lucky to sleep until nearly 4:00 a.m. I will make breakfast or lunch, we’ll run a few short errands and hang out.

Folks ask me what we’re doing for fun this weekend and my husband is so tired from a long work week in two cities and nine hours getting home that I just say, “hanging out.” He has another nine hours getting back before dawn on Monday so he deserves the rest. I love that he wants to come home on the weekends. Control? In certain situations, yes. There is a caveat for this weekend. No getting stuck in an elevator. Cheers! Dee

Stick It!

No, it’s not what you think. It’s what gymnasts yell to their team members to “stick” a landing on a vault, floor exercise, dismount. It means bend your knees, look as if you meant to do what you did, rise up and elevate your arms and look at the judges and wave to the crowd.

If you take a step you’ll be penalized but if you fall on your face or on your butt it’s better to take a step. So, stick it.

Next is stuck. I took our dog Zoe out this evening, re-filled her water bowl and headed out without her, keys still in the door and ran into neighbors at the elevator. I had recycling to take out and was going to a local market to buy my husband his favorite frozen pizza as he’s coming in shortly after a long flight home.

Seconds after I bid adieu to my neighbors I hit the number for recycling, the elevator doors closed and it lurched and its computer went down. Thirty minutes later it lurched again. My cell would not work and my husband was on a plane, anyway. I was in intermittent contact with the elevator phone people.

Forget the high school days of stick it! This was just an old lady stuck alone with her recycling in an elevator, for an hour before anyone came to rescue me. I was four feet down and ten feet from our home when Mr. Otis came and opened the doors.

The first thing he said was “I’m going to close these doors and bring you up.” I replied “No way anyone is going to close these doors on me again.” He jumped down to lift me and the staff member that found me, J, held out his hand. I put one leg up and J pulled me. Thanks!

After playing with our dog and our neighbor’s grandkids I went home and started shaking. I had told the elevator operator/phone support (no cell phone service in the elevators) that if the #4 elevator kept jumping up and down I wrote a draft will yesterday and to tell my husband it’s in Word, the most recent document.

Guess what? I stuck it. Through dropping up and down I kept my knees bent for shocks and never fell or even took a step forward. Later I called my brother-in-law and told him to ask our nephew, nearing teen years so we’ll lose him forever, what to do if he was stuck alone in an elevator.

God bless him, he said “sit down.” The operators had me doing so many things inside that I could not do so. My husband just took the dog out, on the only working elevator for 30 stories of folks. It turns out others have been stuck in this elevator over the past few days and it was supposed to be turned off today. It wasn’t and it was hot in there and I didn’t know that the other one is sketchy as well. We have a number of floors here.

We also have pregnant ladies, elderly and disabled residents who need an elevator. I’m sure they’ll fix them tomorrow as there will be one elevator for movers and another for people who live here. The movers are more important.

And as the late, great Walter Cronkite would have said, And that’s the way it is, date…. Dee

ps No longer stuck.

 

 

 

Little Dog

I once knew a 3# Yorkshire Terrier named Savannah. She was too tiny to even wear the smallest size at the pet store so a joint friend, a retired milliner (hat maker) would sew her costumes. My favorite was the denim and gingham jacket with matching hat for our July 4 BBQ. One day she went purposefully away from our area of the park.

There were two large Rottweilers barking like crazy. I told Savannah’s “mom” we had to go and get her. She said no. Savannah told these big dogs off and they were quiet and walked away. S lived for another ten years. I don’t know about the Rotties!

Our country tends to give money to the rich (banks, insurance companies, wealthy people) and forgets the people who actually pay taxes.

I am a little dog going after an insurance company for denying a claim. I’ve done it before and won. Great story about that one, having the insurance commissioner call my agent after they dated my check the first of the month (the date due) then they cashed it in at the bank the morning of the 2nd and sent me a cancellation of policy notice.

Calling and telling my agent that fact plus that our state had a 15-day grace period did no good. I was an analyst working at the Legislature for insurance. I ran into the insurance commissioner at a reception, he rubbed his hands together with glee and told me to call in the morning. Two hours later my agent called and asked why I ever thought my policy was cancelled (the Commissioner had the paper canceling it). An hour later the Commissioner called, said he thought the guy peed his pants and that it was the most fun he’d ever had. btw I changed agents.

Sometimes the little dogs win. I’m going to win against my insurer and a huge hospital chain. My dog had bad hips and now she has none, had to grow her own but is silly happy) but has made her way for over 12 years. She used to roll down a hill belly-up and all the dogs left her alone. Why? She loved all the other dogs, people and their kids, and no dog wanted to eviscerate her.

She is a mascot and nearly 90 in people years. I’ve gone belly-up for a while to be left alone but no more. I’m going after the insurance and health “care” regimes because there is no doubt there is a cabal here. I just have to find the angle. A good lawyer wouldn’t hurt. Battle! Dee

White Peaches

I bought a bunch today, had one and it was succulent and flavorful so gave one away as my husband prefers nectarines.

There’s another “peach” that’s been on the bed for hours. Zoe, our dog we got as a pup has hips she grew as a pup from cartilage after we had to have hers removed, and has passed her tests but is never away from me for longer than a few minutes. She actually has the coloring of the skin of a white peach. I doubt that in the morning sun she will allow me to take a photo of them together as she just doesn’t like camera and flash.

Today she heard children outside and was desperate. Yes, this gal who’s nearing 90 in “people years” who loves people, kids, dogs and sometimes even pups if they do not jump up on her. Then she’ll just do a harrumph (I believe it means “excuse me, I’m older and more experienced” in dog) and the pup will scale it down. No barking or biting for any. Zoe is kind of a mascot around our neighborhood.

I love summer, peaches kids visiting their grandparents. Not having to wear winter boots, coats, hats. Taking care of my husband and our old dog is a joy and having kids around is a bonus. I think they’re here for the weekend and grandma and grandpa are our dear neighbors. Perhaps the kiddos can toss her ball or make her do tricks for treats sometime tomorrow.

Cherries. Every weekend when they are in season. I’ve yet to do a”cold dinner” for my husband, which he likes. Baked Black Forest Ham, aged cheddar, hard-cooked eggs, tomatoes, blanched green beans, potato salad. A great loaf of bread, I even some compound butter in the freezer from our community garden, and perhaps cornichons. He’s allergic to fish so cannot do a Nicoise salad. He thinks that because dinner is served cold it is not time-intensive however it takes much longer than to place a pot roast in the oven for three hours and cook pappardelle noodles. While I take the dog out! Cheers and happy summer from Dee.

Ladies?

Hair.

I’ve an appointment in the morning. He’s a barber, across the way. I love this Harley-Davidson guy.

A couple of things. I’ve thought bangs. I had him take off 8″ last time and he was very judicious in his choices. He played it safe in case I changed my mind, and I love him for that.

Probably no bangs as mom used to trap me in the bathroom, put tape over my forehead and cut below it. I’ve a very low forehead, so the more I squirmed, the shorter they were. Plus, it’s terrible to grow out.

I’ve a trip in the fall, overseas for dad’s birthday. Should I get a severe  cut and have it done again? Know that my hair does what it wants. It’s down to my shoulders now  so flips up. I feel as if it’s the early 70’s and I’m trying out for a part on the Mary Tyler Moore show.

Flashbacks

On Saturday a pair of shoes arrived courtesy of my husband. He chose smaller than I needed. Yesterday three pair arrived. The first was just right, second too small and third too large. Goldilocks. I have brown hair and a dog, not bears.

Then I set an alarm for my hair appointment this morning. Dave Mason singing “All Along the Watch Tower.” Instead of awakening me, it brought me back to open high school campus when I used to run home between classes, hop in the pool, listen to Dave Mason loudly, a LP album while sitting in a pool chair lined with his cover wrapped in tin foil to “reflect.” I think that’s the wrong kind of alarm but the dog has been out and fed and out again and I’ve nearly two hours until my appointment.

I’ve a few serious questions. Last time I visited Mr. B, a Harley enthusiast, I asked him to take 8″ off my mane. It was the day after eye surgery and he was hesitant so hedged his bets, God bless him.

Now it is short but hot on my neck and it is August.  Mr. B knows my rule. The front has to be long enough to tie up for cooking so I don’t get hair in our food. Should I go dramatic? Bangs (no), and still get it cut again before our river cruise?

I’ll know in 1.5 hours. There’s another question in the plan. Doc says I have to wear a brim as I’ve a small cataract (I’ve a Tilley with tokens intact after 10 years, and a Texas summer cowgal with bling for this season) so the haircut is immaterial! Scarves will be my signature so hair and me don’t matter any more. Carpe diem. Dee