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Our Girl Zoe

We got her, already spayed, at six weeks of age. She’ll be twelve years in January. As we traveled we’ve had her stay with friends, with sleepover caretakers, and at the vet.

She loves driving with us in my car with her orthopedic bed but some distances are too far to drive and she can’t fly anymore, according to me.

Zoe had bad hips and needed them excised at six and nine months of age then underogo therapy, which my husband and I did. Yes, he did sneak her into a pool for water exercises every night. She grew her own hips from cartilage.

As I see most dogs don’t live beyond 13 years I’m scared of her turning twelve. She passed her ten year senior blood panel and aced it. I was told by her hip surgeon in another state to skip a year and do it again at 12. That’s coming up.

I’ve euthanized two of my very ill older pets. Helped a neighbor with another, very sad, a pup with Parvo. I don’t know that my husband can handle this as he loves her too much. So do I, but I know my responsibility is her and if she lives five years more it will be up to me to decide. If her quality of life diminishes it is up to me and I’ll be there to supervise and hold her. Why? That’s my job.

Kids want chicks and bunnies for Easter. What happens to them? What happens to a pup you buy a kid for Christmas? Parents. And the chicks and bunnies die. The dog is yours for 13 years when the kids are through college and don’t want them anymore except for a pat on the head when they pass through.

We love our Zoe. My husband is a big guy who is always called in to help carry caskets, but he doesn’t want to be there when his loved one dies. Especially when I call “the shot.” To veterinarians everywhere, thank you for allowing us to work with you to make a wise decision that our pet does not need to suffer. Dee

Walking Out the Door

I’ve done it. I’ve held my dog and cat during and after euthanasia because they couldn’t make a life anymore. I’ve scattered their ashes and been at hospice before my mother died several years ago.

Jobs? I left gently for better opportunities but only openly quit once. Then I was stymied by a powerful woman who seduced me over a bagel at a hotel restaurant on Central Park. She only wanted me to work for her because I knew that thing, computers. Now my husband laughs as we have a division of labor and he takes care of all electronics. I take care of the dog and everything else.

Losing faith. I only walk out on a few of those who don’t want me or who feed me to the wolves. Some I fight for anyway because they need me.

Ideas, tenacity, a brain or two and walking out the door isn’t so bad. I see it as an opportunity. Although my husband is deathly allergic to cats (I’ll tell you a story) we are cats and always land on our feet.

Walking out the door. Today. HR conversation about when all benefits will end. COBRA is nearly $1K and “marketplace” is about $4,500 per month.

So much for walking away, and away we go. Dee

When Sirens Stop

I’m looking out on a “physical rehab” center that is no more than a continuous care facility/old age home. Just now, a siren was going and stopped en route, then backed up slowly and staff went inside.

Years ago I decided to end the suffering of my cat, after staying until 4:00 in the morning for him. I was called “Nathan’s Mom” all that time, and from the time I decided to be there to help end his life I was only called by my given name. He was 13 and suffered from congestive heart failure combined with pneumonia.

Oh, they’re taking the body out. I think they want to turn this human’s room over quickly, as there is money to be made, as there was with Nathan.

Nathan the cat’s is the first death I ever ordered or participated in. I cannot tell you what it was like to feel the life leave his body and I believe his soul entered mine. Having a life in one’s hands and cradling the body is a feeling one cannot convey in mere words.

The lights and sounds go off the ambulance for human beings, the owner becomes Mr. or Mrs. Smith if it’s an animal.  Here it comes, in a black plastic bag, what was a person 1/2 hour ago.

As a child, growing up Catholic, we were never taught how babies were made or why people die, even that people died. We were kept from it all.

Now the body has been dutifully and respectfully loaded into the ambulance. The person in charge must be doing the paperwork while the others are out having a cigarette. Death as a business. I choose life. Dee